可他真的很忙，忙到一个字都不想回复我。后来我再次加他好友，骂了整整三四个小时！为什么他可以自由自在该吃吃该喝喝，对我冷暴力让我内耗自我怀疑呢？我甚至感觉他就是渣男不想装了他摊牌了……我感觉他巴不得对我冷暴力然后分手，毕业以后转眼就娶别人，踢了我这个唠叨的贱女人！我还真的是贱，人家都不搭理我而我还跪舔什么呢？他永远都在说自己忙忙忙，可我算什么呢？他说“算个屁”……他说我删除他就应该我主动加他好友……反正我也很无语吧，那就加呗，加了QQ又是一系列骚操作特别关心啊置顶啊情侣标识啊情侣相册啊……好像我们真的没有以前的激情了吧？两个人已经有了隔阂走不近了吧……晚上八点多他爸又打电话，说本来月底准备送给我们家黑李吃但是昨天尝了一口很酸苦，他说八九月份熟透了再给我们拿着吃……就算我发信息他过了好久才回复两张图片，他说自己忙的没空理我……是啊就算叔叔说我们平常多沟通又如何？我说他天天都是做实验废寝忘食，可以忘记吃饭睡觉劳逸结合，甚至可以忘记我哈哈……虽然我跟叔叔唠嗑半个小时好像还挺开心的，毕竟我又不是乱说……大家都是为了他健康着想而他高高在上，别说我了连他爸打电话他都敷衍一分钟挂了……“我很忙……”是啊，这是他的口头禅……后来十二点多我们还在沟通，我说他忙归忙能不能多给家人还有我沟通？我真的好累好累……虽然好像我们又重归于好，可是一到夜里我的情绪就极其不稳定……可他不懂，他倒头就睡着了……我的消息又是冷场……
晨，其实我们好像真的越走越远了……
2024.6.23
这些天其实都很煎熬，他频繁出差做实验忙碌，他说没有胃口吃饭，我还得像老师教学生一样哈哈关心他安慰他……我这种人不去当老师也是可惜了，我感觉我都可以当能言善辩的演说家喽！像我这样的女人男人大概率不会珍惜吧……我说我想突然袭击看他的微信录屏，虽然并没有什么但是我习惯了看哈哈……他还是说忙忙忙，晚上才发给我……我发现他回复做实验的那些师姐师兄们非常客气开心的感觉，回复都是“哈哈”带着表情，再对比一下他回复我冷漠敷衍，也就我分享狗子的视频他“哈哈”了一句……我问他能不能以后对我热情一点不要那么敷衍连表情都不带，是不是真的烦透了我巴不得分道扬镳……他睡着了，他又睡着了……可能吧他真的太累了……其实我也压力大啊我也怕下个月考试再次失败……我也没有办法啊，算了算了睡觉吧……
晨，我真的好累好累……
2024.6.24
我再三逼问他给我回复：“能不能做到以后回复我的消息带表情别那么冷冰冰敷衍？”他昨天说今天出差，现在可能还没有起床吧？或者已经在路上故意忽略我的消息吧……我敏感多疑，我好像精神也受到了极大刺激……我直接删除了他。
“明天就是625了，QQ你不回复我我已经删除了。其实也就这么简单的一个问题，你如果可以做到以后对我不敷衍那就和好，做不到那就分手吧反正大家都累了互相祝福彼此明天六周年单身快乐！”如果我重要的话，你真的会找我的……而不是一副有我没我都一样的样子……
太阳出来了，我也起床吧！最近想要花钱买买退退还是没有下单……昨天分享给你一套战国袍你说怪好看，哈哈可能吧今天我就要冲动买啦！本来想结婚穿现在想想还不如我自己原地结婚……但是看看战国袍我感觉花钱也只是图个拍照，不够日常……罢了罢了不买了结婚再买……
“情侣相册已经把你踢出去了，问题回答了那就一切正常，不回答就分吧！你回答了就加我QQ，就当是2018.6.24哈哈！不回复就算了，恰好六年分手，六年快乐吧！Q已经删了，因为我非常生气，昨天晚上特别特别内耗哭了一场，而你只知道倒床就睡不知道我有多难过。因为我太缺乏安全感，不图你钱异地恋让你给我一点安全感都没有，是啊你是发了，看见你回复别人加表情对我长篇大论不想回复的感觉。因为6.24是你表白我的，我感觉六年了我够主动了。我想让你主动一次。我太累了……”我假装说我昨天哭了，哈哈看看能不能让臭男人瞪大眼睛看见……罢了罢了，肯定没有用哈哈……其实就是很简单的问题而已，我就想逼你回复我，逼你发誓告诉我你可以做到只对我热情对别人敷衍！
晨，我一直在等你。我在等你回头看看身后遍体鳞伤的我……如果你真的不回头了那样也挺好，我们终究释怀……
他还是没有发信息找我，有可能还没有睡醒起床吧……我还是独自忙起来吧，疯狂刷题……昏昏欲睡依旧坚持到底！我发信息假装说我跟朋友去算命了有缘无分，但是这样也会朝着那个方向去胡思乱想，我还是选择了撤回……这神秘感足够了吧？其实我也知道无论我如何作妖，他连敷衍都不愿意了……可能吧，你我命中注定不尽人意……
忙起来果然可以自救！我忙自己的一切，突然发现你也只是其中一部分。再说了我们还没有结婚，我为什么就要拿你当做老公看待呢？我也只是你的女朋友，你可以权衡利弊变了初心抛弃我……哈哈去求了不说这些了，我自己都感觉我话痨我感觉自己烦人哈哈……天天都在打字发信息对方一言不合冷暴力，谈个头啊？女人还是要自己经济独立，希望我成为那样的女人吧……
原来年少情深也会败给时间和距离……
我好像在等他，也好像在遗忘我们的曾经……
不知过了多久，他才发信息回复我……下午三点多他才微信主动发信息：“出差该回去了，溜走。”我突然发现我手贱爱删除情侣相册突然不见了消失了，就像我们死去的爱情！我骂骂咧咧想要给他打语音，一直显示对方忙线中……可能吧他正在打车回学校……可能吧他还没有吃饭他脾气不好他饿了也想骂我但是忍住了……可能吧他就是一个情绪稳定的男人，稳定到我被克死也不会多言一句……我直接再次删除了他的联系方式……可能吧，这一刻只有女人才知道所谓的细节吧？只有女人才知道为什么充满了无数个想要分手的瞬间……他根本不会睁开眼睛第一个就想到你，他只会嫌你烦嫌你唠叨……他明明知道这样做你会伤心难过一整天可他还是这样做了……他可以轻轻松松拿捏你的情绪，把你变成了疯疯癫癫的泼妇。而他却高高在上悻悻地望着失魂落魄的你在玻璃堆里找糖吃……其实他并不是直男，他简直就是渣男！因为他懂女人的心，只是不愿意动心罢了！那一刻，我真的恨不得杀了他！我要他永远穷困潦倒，在没有我的年年岁岁里万劫不复！我从来都没有这么恨一个男人，恨到了骨子里。我巴不得一剑封喉让他万箭穿心生不如死……我也不知道为什么如今我居然如此冷漠无情蛇蝎心肠，我只知道我早已无法回头了……他再也无法走进我的心！那一瞬万念俱灰，我突然如释重负。至少他回复消息了并没有遇见坏人或者死了哈哈，要不然我肯定会被说八字克夫……我真的不知道他这个小男人到底经历了什么乱七八糟的劫数居然如此冷漠！每次我问他：“咱俩到底是什么关系？”他说：“情侣关系，夫妻关系。”然后我欣然一笑，就像传奇故事里边的霸道总裁和小娇妻……不得不说真真正正的霸道总裁是宠爱另一半的有魅力的成熟男人！就算霸道总裁会虐小女友，他们也不会百般折磨让对方痛不欲生！
王熠晨，我讨厌你！我恨你！在你不回复信息冷暴力折磨我让我语无伦次的时候，我真的巴不得杀了你！我永远记得我们聚少离多的日子里难得一见，每次异地见面你疯狂地亲吻我的嘴你让我抱紧你，你说这样你很开心，你说你会永永远远爱我，只爱我！他妈的如今算是应了那句话？好女人真的遇不见好男人吗？你不爱我为什么当初要追我？为什么要给我一生一世的诺言？为什么假装爱我？
我很坚强，哪怕我自己都要碎了自己很心疼自己我也要忍着不该有的情绪……我心直口快我骂你千言万语都不及一句“我爱你”。你已经失去我了，你的世界再无我……
我反反复复删删加加，而他置之不理……最后我终于不再纠缠不休……我决定退出了……
“大哭了一场，我们终究还是散了。你终于自由了，而我却不知猴年马月才可以结束自我内耗。全世界没有一个人懂我，都是命。今天又去神婆那里算了一卦，果然还是没能熬过五月份。说实话挺心痛的，那就期待下一个吧……我的命就是这样，必须谈好几段才可以结婚哎，我真的好累，这段感情让我彻底无法好好再去爱别人了，希望我可以潇洒一点孤独终老吧！其实人世间一切失去都会以另外一种方式回归，我是一个不服输的人，我才是赢家。”哈哈其实我没有去算命，我在欺骗所有人……不过我知道，你我注定有缘无分……哈哈其实我巴不得发动态你暗中观察看见了来找我……以前的你看见我发动态胡思乱想就会找我，后来再也不会了……
“整整6年青春，21-27岁，都怪我敏感多疑不适合谈，导致大家都伤痕累累。2018.6.24此时他表白说喜欢我要跟我在一起，2024.6.24他一天冷冰冰爱答不理我太内耗了，删除了一切联系方式，空间说说不停删除。我知道我彻底病了我需要修身养性。那就听天由命结束吧！希望我一定要挺下去，我感觉浑身都不得劲。他伤我太深，我们的故事结束了，没有后续了。他想要自由，我可有可无。我想要沟通但是被拒绝，我直接消失的无影无踪。在你看不到的地方最后说句我爱你吧！”
“2018.6.24-2024.6.24恰好这是我们第360次争吵嘻嘻，原谅我吧，太过幼稚，总喜欢吵你频繁发信息唠叨无休止甚至骂你，我也跟你说句对不起吧！也很感谢你曾经出现在我的青春里让我变得热情勇敢自信，本来准备给你定一个蛋糕好好庆祝一下六周年哈哈可惜我没有资格没有机会了。昨天晚上我不开心你我有了隔夜仇，今天我傻傻等了你一天结果你说出差准备回学校，可能吧你只是忘记早上回复我的消息你太忙了忘记了哈哈，而我一个人沉浸在备考的压力中麻痹自己，心碎了一地窒息哈哈，可能我的确太作了终于失去你了。我再也不会期待你的任何信息，我会慢慢淡化那些爱恨情仇的回忆。从此以后我再也不是那个陪你一起走一起成长的女孩了，把我忘在回忆里，找一个真心爱你的懂你的人结婚。我也知道这一切都是在劫难逃，只是我凭主观努力去经营依旧适得其反。你是一个不信命的人，而我这个傻瓜不够坚定自信。往后余生，祝你幸福。”
“谢谢你的出现让我变成了一个幸福的小女孩，也让我变成了人见人恨的受气包。我不陪你了！六年了，我也该回归自己的世界了。其实我们真的有缘无分，其实我真的尽力了……我突然如释重负。终于摆脱了渣男，太开心了，希望自己重生……好好善待自己吧！女孩子就应该阳光活泼开心快乐，再也不用秀恩爱伪装仪式感啦，再也不用假装坚强。真好，反正我也是渣女，我想要一个人孤独终老……这样也不用生孩子呜呜呜好激动！希望老天爷让我孤独终老！恋爱谈够了再赐予我质量好一点的桃花吧啧啧啧……”
夏天就要结束了，我们的故事也该止于此了……
你怕不怕我从你的世界彻底消失？我爱你的样子连自己都感觉羡慕又可笑。只有放弃你，我才可以理性。看着你曾说过爱我的话，一生一世不过都只是谎言。爱一个人耗尽了我所有热情，往后就孤独一人吧！我不恨你对我冷漠至此，只恨自己太天真太认真。我走啦，傻憨憨。祝你余生遇良人，似我却终不如我。再见！
记得那时候我在喧嚷的人群里有了臭脾气走走停停爱乱提分手，你一边喊我傻子一边拉着我一起跑你说会永远爱我不会让我逃走。我问你我们会不会分开你说我们会永远在一起。可能吧，异地恋终究熬不下去了，我们都累了都不想坚持下去了……那就祝我们成为更好的自己，放下过去，重新开始吧！
哈哈，那时候真的很浪漫啊！他说：“你要敢分手我腿把你打断！”他说：“你结婚我就要去抢婚。”他说：“等熬过了异地就结婚哈哈！”他说：“如果你真的很犟要走我也拦不住。”他说都只是他说而已，其实在他这里我张烁永远都是自由的，他不会打扰我不会为我吃醋不会哄我，他好像爱我又好像不爱我，我已傻傻分不清楚。世人啊都嘲笑我是恋爱脑，其实你也是恋爱脑。因为我一直告诉你我再也不会吵你了再也不会离开你，其实最终想要离开的却是我。我太累了，虽然我比你大九个月显得有些幼稚，可每次吵架我都要去哄你，其实你真的很不会哄人嘻嘻都是我自己哄好自己的。我不需要什么情绪价值，可能我就想要我的热情有所回应。王冬你知道吗？每次翻看你我很久以前刚刚在一起的时候的合照，我真的深思许久……那时候你也是青涩懵懂的少年啊稚气未脱，那时候我也是一看见你就害羞红了脸的小女孩哈哈！我喜欢躲在你的身后听你向朋友介绍我……你说你喜欢霸气直爽的女孩子，结果没想到上天派我来到你身边。其实你踮起脚亲吻高高在上的我说爱我你也卑微到了骨子里，其实你更喜欢仰望你的把你视为英雄的伴侣。哈哈，你总喜欢在我们去操场散步坐在一起看星空的时候趁我不注意从我头上一飞而过，你说这样我就长不高了，可能吧这样我身高163就可以仰望身高172的你了哈哈！你很幽默阳光，总说我是天生的悲观主义异想天开，你说我很漂亮不需要化妆就是绝杀封神我可以在你面前大大方方做我自己，反而我化妆好像不好看哈哈！其实你也是爱我的，在全世界都抛弃我的时候你就像一道光闪瞎老娘的双眼！你说我哭的样子很丑让我多笑一笑。后来你好像变了，你开始变得繁忙冷漠敷衍，你甚至吼我说讨厌我。你喜欢一言不合删除拉黑我的联系方式，而我猛虎落泪。哪怕只是一句玩笑足以让我茶不思饭不想，你这小东西真的是折磨人哈哈！后来呢风水轮流转，两极反转！如果说你在弹皮筋，那么从那以后我的删除拉黑作闹就是皮筋的反弹！你也终于感受到累感受到我的冷漠绝情！我恨你，我恨不得喝下一杯忘情水从此以后不复相念相忘于江湖！你还是不成熟，你总说我带给你的只有痛苦，可你却忘记了在你最纠结迷茫的时候我陪在你身边听你诉说你的心事，你忘记了在你最疏忽大意犯小人的时候是我冒着身败名裂的风险替你斩妖除魔，你忘了最初的那个你普普通通相貌平平而我夸你帅气有男人味……
后来日落西山，人走茶凉。我再也不是你的谁。前世的恩怨纠葛让你我今生相遇，却终究无法善始善终和平了结。若真的有来生希望你我不要再次遇见，若今生此去经年注定缘起缘灭相思斩断，愿你彻底离开我的世界不再有一丁点打扰。嗯，我会慢慢走出去的，错不在你而在于我[泪奔]。错在我一念之间动了凡心，最后怎是落得个如此下场！你我的剧本或许也该徐徐落幕了吧，感恩有你相伴，也恨你未能初心不变事事如愿。我放过你了，求求你也放过我吧……
又到夜里十一点了，听着音乐我居然真的哭了出来……不过哭一场真的好多了，否则我真的是会憋死吧？哭过之后就舒服了。我精疲力尽，还是好好休息吧……而你还没有找我加我好友，其实只需要一秒钟而已……可能吧你感觉我还会主动找你的，但是这次我一定不会主动了……
我太累了，晚安，世界！
2024.6.25
六周年快乐……
“我永远年轻永远热情自由，我想要的一切都会拥有！我不羡慕别人的好运，因为我也终将拥有我想拥有的一切！加油吧，孤身一人的厌世者！虽然我自言自语有些疯狂，可我的精神世界丰富多彩。我的灵魂是有趣的。我爱自己，我只爱越来越好的自己！看淡浮生看透剧本不染凡尘，我只管完成自己的使命！不必留念过往，否则只会遍体鳞伤。再见了，曾经死去的自己！重生吧，我孤芳自赏高傲自大的灵魂！拜拜了过去的一切垃圾小人和前尘旧事，重生吧改写命运的剧本！我是强者，是玩世不恭的王！”
“其实我不需要任何人给我安慰，一切都是因果报应。我是身强癸水可以比劫扛官杀！对于一切劫数我无所畏惧，只要我的精神世界足够强大，我的凡体肉胎就不会被击垮！不要以为我是真的好欺负就用邪恶的人性骗我，报应这个东西一定会迅速实现。强者是不需要虎狼成群的，只有弱者才会患得患失！重生吧，愿你早日历劫上岸！”
“记住！只有弱者才会任人宰割患得患失后知后觉！强者永远都是内核强大，无人超越！”我在疯狂发动态……
“6周年快乐，王冬！也祝彼此单身快乐！感谢你曾经出现在我的世界让我开心了很久，没想到我们还是因为吵架无法好好沟通最终还是分手了。那就留在回忆里吧！祝你以后遇见一个喜欢你的女人结婚，我们没有故事了，再也不会打扰你了。你想要的是不那么唠叨烦人的另一半，我想要的是宠爱我的事事有回应的另一半，说实话异地恋太难了真的太难了，我一直孤军奋战在熬在坚持，你永远都感觉我无理取闹作妖，可分开以后你再也找不到更好的。拜拜了，我六年的青春！”我开始在朋友圈公开吐槽……
其实去神婆那里算命人家说的对，我真的是感情不顺婚姻不顺。神婆说我们一个水命一个火命容易吵架闹别扭，毕竟你谈这么久了神婆也不可能说不合适劝分手吧？哈哈以后再也不谈了。这段感情我努力了我掏心掏肺我问心无愧。而你就永远躲在自己的世界里忙吧！既然我在你的世界里可有可无，那我就潇洒离开，我再也不会烦你打扰你吃醋阴阳怪气！臣退了，臣本就是女王，我不可能是你的阶下囚。总有一天你会后知后觉发现失去我，而我再也不会回头。世界之大相遇本就很不易，本来你动动嘴哄哄我就好了我很好哄的，可你永远感觉自己没有错。那你就另请高明吧，恕不奉陪。我什么都不图，就感觉是天赐良缘都是宿命而已。缘起我爱你，缘灭我恨你。每次都是这样，我像泼妇像贱人一样连自己都骂疯狂发动态自言自语，而你永远都是一副没有错的样子。所以说删除一切联系方式，坏人我来当吧！结婚有什么好呢，还得给男人生孩子身材走形当免费保姆，男人赚钱累女人就不累吗！男人想要被尊重理解包容女人就不需要吗？哈哈突然感觉分手也不错，这样就不用结婚生子了，正合我意！别人给我介绍男人我也不稀罕，可能以后我会变成同性恋吧！我喜欢女人，男人都是骗子只会骗你的感情真心，他们爱你的时候说会哄你，不爱的时候就是冷暴力敷衍。然后眼睁睁看着你被他们逼疯自己可怜兮兮的样子好像他们才是受害者。我是有些极端主义悲观疯狂，可是我不是傻子我也不是贱婢。除了我再也没有人受得了他，不信他重新找一个女人试试？而我只要单身，追我的还不是满大街？其实现在女人结婚越来越难了，因为大环境不好搞钱最重要，女人独立还需要男人吗？呵呵，本宫以后再也不信男人的鬼话了。不就是分个手嘛搞得我好像癌症晚期似的！我的口才不当演说家真的是屈才了！今年甲辰年伤官见官我就是骂骂咧咧怎么了？我就是看不惯任何男人怎么了？反正我早就预知今年会分手，今年就算结婚也必然会离婚！我就是看的太透了哈哈！现实中五六个大师建议我晚婚找一个年纪大的宠我的，克可我已经付出所有心血栽树让别人乘凉啊又不是我，我已经没有勇气热情去重新开始别的恋情伤害别的男人！罢了罢了，以后有什么机缘巧合削发为尼出家。上辈子造孽太深今生诸事不顺。哈哈如果有一天我不再这样唠唠叨叨发动态刷存在感，我一定是归隐山林了。我现在只信算命先生甚至真的可以达到迷信的地步，因为算命先生真的可以看透我的剧本！哈哈我们还可以在一起唠嗑八字玄学真精彩！其实我也知道自己的八字容易二婚命，我八字带了伤官克夫呗！伤官配偏印，古人都喜欢说“嫁人不嫁劫财男，娶妻不娶伤官女”，看看吧我就是脾气火爆，没有哪个男人可以让我成为温柔的小女人哈哈！我发现身边朋友从小到大都喜欢说我高冷孤僻，就是因为我金旺偏印旺喜欢独来独往！我又带了伤官其实我口才真的是不错吵架气势一定不会输，而且吵架也是文绉绉的！王冬八字比劫旺比劫克财啊克女人。按理说什么锅配什么盖我们流放市场都是克另一半的命！都命硬！哈哈哈哈笑死我了哈哈哈！反正啊在出嫁和出家面前我愿意出家！汉服婚纱照我自己不就拍了？已经原地结婚了哈哈！摄影师拍照就是牛！现在时运不济这个大运非常垃圾，没想到姐姐我变成了唠唠叨叨的女人，因为这个大运带食神我的用神，我食伤旺必须吐槽出来，我不说真的会抑郁！哈哈哈哈我这个口才不去直播带货搞钱真的是亏了！去他妈的生活，好好加油吧，下个月考试顺其自然！考不上不考了另谋出路！多谢算命先生说的以后我财运还不错甚至二婚反而更好哈哈，那我可就不担心了！这个大运财生杀没有钱我就会有压力，所以说女人必须要好好挣钱！可以一辈子不结婚一定要吃不饱饿不死！欧克欧克骂骂咧咧疯狂吐槽，我自己哄好了自己我真棒！好好学习，忘记臭男人。在我这里没有分手离婚只有活埋丧偶！哈哈哪个男人敢追我呢，不怕被我骂哭？所以说娶妻不娶伤官女，老娘克夫老娘嘴毒心狠手辣！别爱老娘哈哈！这个大运偏财运我只想致富，男人只会阻碍我发财好吧？滚远远的，再也不要滚回我的怀抱！我也滚了，彻底滚出你的世界！拜拜了老子曾经宠爱了六年的傻猪笨蛋！姐姐想你了但是姐姐不会再找你啦，我也爱面子我也固执，我金牛座属牛我八字伤官配印我牛逼我清高我佛系我与世无争我霸气侧漏我是霸道女总裁！没关系，等我32开始就会走好运的，现在27我还年轻，我不羡慕别人的生活不羡慕尘世间的灯红酒绿。总有一天我会暴富，会踩死一切看不起我的垃圾小人！我混的再差也不会横尸街头，我就是自己的贵人。后来的我什么都会拥有，只是山高水长情终葬，生生世世再无卿！我是才女我是文艺范我很温柔大方我很自由潇洒！我爱完美的自己！我的演讲完毕，谢谢大家！
哈哈，朋友圈简直被我霸屏了……大学外教评论了我的动态哈哈！
“What a sad news, Zhang Shuo.Maybe I shouldn't reply, but it feels wrong to read your words and say nothing. I have met you several years ago and knew you as a student, but I know you are a strong girl with a good personality! So I absolutely believe you can overcome these difficulties!! Stay strong during the sad time. You are still young and this kind of pain does go away after a while. I really hope you will find happiness, no matter if it is with this boy, another boy there must be many who are interested in you or single. Good luck！”
“Thank you,handsome teacher!You are the only one who cares my sadness.I suddenly think that I said something about my boyfriend in the front of all the students…I think it's a kind of happy feeling! Both of us are the first time to love each other.He said he loved me and he hoped that I could agree on June,25th,2018. Today we are sad, because there is a cold quarrel between us. I delete his telephone number,QQ and WeChat. Actually, I still hope that he can find me and understand my sadness! However, he doesn't want to tell anything to me.He always says that he is busy.You know, he is a postgraduate student in Fujian,will I am in Henan.Luckily,we were born in the same city!Maybe we will break up with each other this time, and we won't meet each other in this world forever.He is a cold boy,I am easy-going. I understand his sadness because of the busy work in his school,but he thinks I'm a crazy girl.I tells him how to release pressure,I tells him that he should take care of himself in another city……I say thousands of words to care him,but he is cold,just like snow……HaHa, nothing is difficult! If he find me,I will come back to his hug!If he miss me,he must find me.Just like one English song says:“If you wanna cry,cry on my shoulder.“When we were in Henan Institute of Science and technology, we could go out to have a big lunch after a big quarrel… That's very cool!!!Maybe I am a crazy girl truly！I am talkative！Yeah,thousands of crazy words and his cold personality bury our love,which lasts the whole six years.I love him,but as a single dog is much better.Thus,I won't marry anyone and give birth to babies!I also like freedom!Actually,he is stupid.He misses the best one who loves him beyond all of others in the world!Thank you for your suggestion,I am happier than yesterday!The sunshine of this summer is beautiful,why not do something happy to release my pressure?There are many people who break up with their lovers around me,they may cry or celebrate their rebirth!”
“Thank you for your long replies, Zhang Shuo.I just sent a message to your WeChat maybe a little easier than here. Single life can also be happy indeed. And you are still young, so can find a better one. But it sounds like there is also a chance that your boyfriend will realise he should never lose you and will make up to you!! I hope so.”
其实我踏踏实实，在老师眼里我是好学生。唯独在爱情方面我太优秀以至于臭男人不能配得上我哈哈……
外教：Thank you for your long reply, Zhang Shuo.Maybe it is easier to answer here than in your 朋友圈. Yes, I remember you mentioned your boyfriend, also when we talked on Wechat and you had a dream about him something about being a cat haha. I am glad to hear that perhaps there is still a chance your boyfriend will find you and you can accept him again. I only know him from your photos in which I think you always really look in love but I also know photos usually show the happy moments. You are great, so I am sure your boyfriend must miss you a lot already!! But I do agree that long-distance relationships can be difficult; misunderstandings and irritations can occur more easily. I don't believe that you are crazy just passionate and maybe sometimes showing emotions in an extreme way that your boyfriend does not know how to deal with haha. And maybe your boyfriend is really busy, even though that's never an excuse not to make some time for you. I am no expert on relationships haha, but as an older guy maybe I have learned a few things about communication. When people quarrel they often blame each other for their behaviour “You always...“, “you never tell me...“. But maybe that behaviour is not the real problem. It sometimes help to mention your worries and needs to each other “When you don't reply to my messages, I worry that you forgot about me and don't care about me“, “I need to hear that I am the best and only girl in the world for you, even when I'm in a crazy mood“. So more “I“ than “you“. Sometimes that can help to let the other understand better and reassure you “I do love you and always think about you, but sometimes I am shy to say that or just so tired. I will do my best to say it more often. Haha sorry, I wrote too much, just hope maybe there is a?chance this can still help you. No matter what, you are really nice and a cool girl, Zhang Shuo! So I am sure you can find a boy who loves you and treats you well. But it sounds like there is actually still a chance you and your boyfriend will get back together. I hope so.And maybe this is a sad or stressful time for you. Maybe you have better friends for this, but if there is anything I can do to help, just let me know! At least, I will always be happy to listen to you.
我：Haha,thank you very much!As you say,the long distance relationship is very difficult！He is good,me too.Maybe now I find him he must answer my questions.But these days he is busy truly.Sometimes I am shy,I should say “I love you, I miss you“,but I say“Why not answer my messages?“So…He is cold……
外教：Haha, if he is really cold, then he is not a good boy for you and you deserve a better one. But maybe in his heart he is not cold and he is just a human being, who makes mistakes and sometimes expresses his emotions in a clumsy way[偷笑] Just like all of us.Nobody can tell you what to do, I just hope you can be happy with or without him and be treated well[愉快] And I hope that for now you can indeed enjoy the beautiful summer sunshine[跳跳]
我：Man is very care about his self esteem[捂脸]，my crazy words hurt his heart.When we are happy,we can say sweet words to each other,such as“You are cute,I love you“…When the quarrel happens,we don't want to say anything to each other…This is wrong action!Haha,some people like say:“You couldn't break up,you will say to each other no more than 3days…“[好的]Although I cried yesterday evening because his cold,today I am still crazy,but I am very happy because there are some people who cares my sadness…[强][旺柴]Nothing is difficult, I hope he can find me bravely or I find him after several days[旺柴]Haha,I agree…As you know,there are many many boys![阴险][阴险][阴险]
外教：No communication at all during quarrels is maybe not great indeed.Especially if you can't talk about it after the quarrel either. I think it's normal to be sad about this kind of situation. But I'm also sure there must be many people who care about you! And yes, there are many many boys, so maybe the result will be that you find a better one.
我：In China, [捂脸][捂脸]there are many good boys…If he miss（错过）me,he won't find another girl who loves him beyond my true love!Maybe he is still busy,this month his teacher gives him too much tasks.Haha![旺柴]If he miss 想念）me,he will find me no more than 7 days…Today it is the second day.Actually he is nine months younger than me……He was born in January,I was born in March,1997.We are stubborn……
外教：Yes, I understand. It's like an ultimatum, he must show he misses you within this period of time. I expect he will miss you a lot and let you know within the 7 days……But if not, at least that also makes things clearer.
我：Haha, very wonderful[旺柴].We are stubborn and wait each other.[破涕为笑]金牛座Taurus really understands love,but 摩羯座is colder than me.Love is like a war, I am happy and I will be a winner![旺柴]I think he will find me on more than one week.Otherwish ，I will find another boy who loves me!I think this will hurt his heart forever！He is clever,he is also waiting for my messages.Haha[旺柴]，I will give him the last chance[强][强][强].I am emotional,but I can't bear his cold every time.Self-esteem is very important,but……What about me?[破涕为笑]
外教：Ah, that's interesting！Actually I am also a Taurus born April While I think I am usually friendly and easygoing, I am certainly also stubborn.And I think Capricorn your boyfriend's zodiac sign are also stubborn indeed. So it's understandable you will clash sometimes.
我：[捂脸]As a matter of fact,single dog is free![旺柴][旺柴][旺柴]He said he will be a single dog if I break up with him forever,and won't find another girl.[破涕为笑]Wow!Great! I was born in4，21st[捂脸]I think Taurus is very cute and easy-going[强]！He was born in January,20th[捂脸].（1.20——水瓶座加摩羯座He is cold!
外教：There are also advantages to being a single dog.And I could understand if your boyfriend feels it's impossible to find a girlfriend that is better than you.
我：According to Chinese fortune telling（算命，周易/易经Yi Jing）, he is fire and I am water.[旺柴]
外教：Our birthdays are very close! Yes, I also think we are usually friendly and easy-going it seems Taurus is not often angry, but if we are angry we are very angry！Maybe that's a little true for meHaha, actually my sister's birthday is exactly the same as your Boyfriend's,Also January 20th. But my sister always says she doesn't like Capricorn and she isn't really a Capricorn, but actually already an Aquarius. Because that starts the next dayHm, fire and water sounds like a difficult combination……
我：In China,when some people marry,they will find one master 算命大师） to predict 预测）[旺柴]Sounds wonderful[破涕为笑]I like mysterious things,including western星座and old prediction of Chinese[捂脸]Haha,according to this, our love story is filled with tragedy and comedy 悲喜交加，相爱相杀）
外教：It's interesting! So did you find a master for these predictions already? I saw you wrote earlier that a fortune-teller predicted problems and even divorce.But then again, maybe sometime we can defeat fate and also have some influence on this ourselves[呲牙]
我：Our story likes Shakespearean Tragedy[流泪][流泪]，so I found different masters to tell our fate,we are difficult indeed,But if we understand each other,we can win!
外教：Yes, that's more hopeful！I also like to believe that with understanding and through our own behaviour, we have some influence on the outcome as well.
我：Yes[强]，nothing is difficult if you don't give up easily[捂脸]
外教：And maybe even very suitable couples will sometimes quarrel and go through a difficult period!
我：[强][强][强]I agree.Oh，my God![破涕为笑]It's sunny today！The Summer holiday is coming!
外教：Yes. So the question now will be to give up or not to give up. I agree it's important not to give up too easily. But if the problems are too deep and you really think he is cold, perhaps giving up can also lead to new and better opportunities. But maybe wait if he contacts you first! Yes, it's really summer now.
我：Thank you for your words,you must be very busy today,Sorry[捂脸]
外教：Will you also be free and have some time to enjoy the summer holiday? I think you should relax well after all this relationship stress[拥抱]
我：Yes!But I should study [捂脸]，there is a test next month
外教：I am not busy now, because my classes for this semester have finished already. And in any case, I am happy to talk with you, so will always do my best to make time for that.I feel touched that you shared your story with me and hope you will be happy!!Wow, that's important too[呲牙] What kind of test? Postgraduate entrance exam? Or are you already a student now and the test is part of your studies?I shouldn't disturb you then, because maybe you need to study for the test!
我：About becoming a teacher[捂脸][捂脸]……I think becoming an English teacher is not easy.After graduation,I jioned in teaching tests twice[捂脸]，but I failed…Teacher Recruitment Examination（教师招聘考试）[捂脸]
外教：Wow, it's great that you want to pass the English teacher's test! Actually, I think you would be a good teacher and your personality is suitable for it[鼓掌] But I also know the tests are often about a lot of theory and maybe not so easy to pass加油[呲牙]
我：In our town,it's very difficult.I have too many competitor竞争者[破涕为笑]
外教：Haha yes, but I'm sure you are also very good, so you can beat your competitors[加油][呲牙]
我：Love is only one part in my life,so I should work hard[流泪]
外教：Yes, I understand. It would be great if you can pass the test!! And then happy love life can follow as well[调皮]
我：Thanks！[强]You know, we students all like you!Maybe it's the last time I join in the competition![破涕为笑]If I still fail in the exam,maybe giving up is a good choice!Earning money is much better!Taurus has the more chances to make money than others!Haha,I am very happy!Thank you!It's time to have lunch.Have you ever had lunch?
外教：I think it's always good to have a plan A pass the exam, but also a plan B if the first plan fails. Haha, Taurus are good, but also you as an individual person are good and resilient! Maybe not everything can be a success, but I know you will succeed in the end!!
我：Yes！[强][强][强]We should believe in ourselves!Haha,we eat noodles[捂脸].What about you?[得意]
外教：Thank you, I always remember and like all of you as well.It's special to meet so many great people in one year of classes. I will always care about all of you. And I'm very happy to talk with you today, even if the reason is a little sad.Yes, I should eat lunch too. I usually eat bread for lunch.But you should enjoy your noodles[呲牙]
我：Haha,I always see you climb mountains in different cities and see some students,friends…Your life is colorful![强] Haha, this is different from China[捂脸]
外教：Haha, part of my life is also just work[偷笑] The photos show the happy moments. It's harder now to visit many students at once, because you all live in different places and have your own busy lives. But I hope one day I will have an opportunity to meet you again[转圈] Haha, maybe then you and your boyfriend will have made up and are happily married[呲牙]Yes, different habits in different cultures!
我：OK，thanks for your suggestions this afternoon!Haha,have a good time in China!Luo Yang洛阳is interesting![得意]